Posts Tagged ‘depression’

For the love of God, October, END already

Normally I love October. Fall is my favorite season hands down, and Hells yes I love Halloween! It just seems like this month has dragged by so slowly that it’s taken far more time than should be necessary to get it wrapped up. Halloween isn’t until Friday, for Cripes sake!

I think I’ve been a little more stressed out than usual– due mostly to my own damn procrastination and general ineptness. I really wish I could just set my ass to a task, finish it, and move on to the next one. It sounds nice and orderly but I never, ever do it. At the moment I’m on a hugely tight deadline, Dr. Sketchy’s has kept me running around all month, there’s been an insane amount of visitors at work, and to top it ff my room’s a damn mess.

Dr. Sketchy’s this month was simultaneously the best and worst. Everyone had a lot of fun, I loved it, Morgana came through last minute to model– but due to the Savannah Film Festival and my own ineptness (I didn’t put the f*cking event time on the poster! What an idiot!) we had a colossaly low attendance. Although, to be fair, we did get at least two new people in, so that’s showing we’re doing something right.

I don’t know. I’m not much of a businesswoman and no matter what I try to do to help out, I feel like I’m making things 10 times more stressful for everyone else.

Sigh

I never thought I’d say this, but…I miss New York City.

Not the people. Rude sons of bitches, from what I’ve known (YES, I have a Southern accent. What, you’re impressed I know how to wear shoes?). Not the city– why don’t y’all have any TREES? Central Park is NOT NATURE. It is a tree zoo, and that is all. Not the “vibrancy”. I can listen to cicadas and frogs outside my window, which far surpasses taxi horns, sirens, and subways.

No, I miss the nights. I miss going out with my friends. I miss my friends. It is a Friday night, and my plans are…go to bed. That is all.

And it is the loneliest thing you can imagine.